Private entry

I can honestly say I've never gotten a fucking BULLET wound in my body before today. Not to mention my already fucked up shoulder he aimed at. I thought for sure I was gonna die when that gun clicked empty at my temple. I shit a brick and almost pissed myself. I wasn't going to give Moon the satisfaction of seeing that. Although he did get the best of me in front of my own Master. The fucker! I want to know what happened to Christy. Nobody's talking. Christy acts timid near me when I try to hold her or kiss her. She pulls away for some reason like she doesn't want to be touched. All I can do is heal her body and wipe the memories of being with Moon and Christian from her mind but I need to know what happened before I do anything. She's so broken and I want to change that. I just don't know how. I need to talk to Master to see if he knows anything. There's still a lot I don't understand and I need to get to the bottom of this. I feel like I wanna kill Moon for hurting my one and only true love. She seems so lifeless. I know she's been through turmoil just seeing what Moon did to me, let alone what happened to her. Why won't she tell me? God I feel so fucking helpless. I can read her thoughts of what she feels about Moon. It keeps running over and over that she wants to slap him. That's obvious. I want to kill him!

I did manage to be able to get some food in her before I made the guest room up for her. She didn't even want me to sleep beside her. I'm assuming they may have raped her, but I gotta know for sure what happened. She's so distant to me. It hurts that she's going through this. I will talk to Master in the morning. Right now we all need sleep. I know Christy and I do. And my shoulder is killing me. I know Master will heal it. I'm hungry. I haven't fed in almost four days. I'm weak and tired.

--I love you Christy. You are my one and only true love and we will be together now. Sleep well my love-- I push that deep into her mind as I lay to rest but somehow I'm unable to sleep so I lie awake wondering in the midst of my confusion.